I’ve been very lax about writing here. Not sure why. I have been doing pretty good about keeping up in my journal for Master. He has gotten behind in keeping up with me, so i did slow down a bit for Him. Now that He is finally caught up at work (YES!), it’s full steam ahead.
Master has been to my new digs twice now. He was here on Sunday and we had a wonderful time. It was an unexpected visit; i thought He was at work. Nope! He arrived here a lil after noontime and we spent a couple hours being very in tune with each other. He is an awsome Master and i feel so comfortable and right with Him. We click together on so many levels.
Afterwards, we went out to eat. I love watching this Man eat! In fact, i have trouble eating my own food for watching Him. You can just see the exquisite pleasure He gets from eating a good steak and all the trimmings. And, our conversations are always interesting and thought provoking at times. He does make me think. There is rarely a time we’ve been together that He hasn’t taught me something, either about Him, me or the world. I love that!
I’ve asked Master for a collar that i can wear all the time. I was hesitant about asking, mostly because i don’t think a slave should ask for things, but He encourages me to communicate my wants and needs, so i did. I love the collar i have that i wear when He is here, but i wanted something to wear all the time, at work, shopping, to bed even. He liked the idea and i’m spose to be measuring my neck. (Thank You, Master!) Can you believe i don’t even own a measuring tape?
As far as the rest of my world right now, i’m struggling a bit. Feeling kinda burned out at work. I’ve pretty much been doing the same thing for 25 plus years. Boss has been in a good mood lately, so that does help. Got word today that the opposition is going to refile an old lawsuit that we’ve been dreading in a week or two. Yippie! (NOT) Eventually, that will mean some overtime for me, but not for several months; i hope. Finances are stressed (can’t seem to get son to get a job “cause he’s in school now making something of himself”), but we are still working on that. I’ll pull through, i always have. I’m carpooling with a friend that now lives only about 4 miles away. That helps a lot with the gas. But, you know how it is – there are so many things i want to buy for the house: table and chairs (a need), decorative stuff (wants), rugs (need and wants), new blinds (need), patio furniture (can wait till Spring) and more than likely in the near future, a new/or good used fridge. Oh yea, a Television! I’m borrowing one from my friend right now. Honestly, i don’t watch it too much. But, i’d like to have a nice one for when Master comes over to watch movies on.
I’ve been working on meditating every evening. At least taking 15-30 minutes to myself, sometimes more. I’ve found it difficult some nights – i can’t get my brain to shut down and just breathe. And, like last night, i couldn’t stop thinkng about my day with Master, so it was useless to even try. Master has encouraged me to meditate and do my Kegels at the same time. Interesting, but actually difficult. It does make you concentrate though and zoom in on ONE body part, or two!
Okay, well i think i’ve talked more than i expected, and it’s getting toward bedtime-i think, this time change has me a lil mixed up still.
Hugz!
Me
